I’m feeling 102 years old today with sore hips, knees and back. I’m hobbling around and waiting patiently for my doctor appointment tomorrow. She may put me back on steroids, which while I’m against because of side effects (weight gain, bone loss, weight gain,etc) I would welcome right about now because of the fatigue and pain. The steroid makes me feel like a normal person, like I used to feel. Blah blah. I’m going through one of those phases where I’m tremendously sick of myself and my ailments. If I knew me I would want to shake me and say “SHUT THE FUCK UP. NO ONE CARES!” Horrible, I know. Sometimes I wonder why Peter hasn’t ever done that. Of course, I wouldn’t be married to him if he did. It HAS to get old. He never shows it. He kisses me, hugs me and tells me to go lay down. Sometimes, if he can sneak away from the urchins, he’ll come lay in bed with me and hold my hand. This, I love. He did that last night. I felt really weak and nasty but was so comforted by his warm hand in mine. Now, that’s love.

Taylor is here today and I just took a long luxurious shower, which I hadn’t done in days. Gross. I have some things on my plate to do today but I may blow them all off and lay quietly. We’ll see. I’m playing it by ear which is the luxury of this day. I can do whatever the hell I want (or don’t want) to do.

I’m feeling like a friend moved away because the House finale was last night. No House until Fall. Sigh… Although, my sadness was quickly replaced with glee when I remembered that Augusten Burroughs has a new book out: Possible Side Effects. I may have to scurry to the bookstore today and get it. Meg and V saw him at Tattered Cover (THE place I would choose to be locked in overnight if that question ever came up) and LOVED it. I was insanely jealous and instantly fled to my computer to see when he was coming to Seattle. He already did. Instant deflation and another heavy sigh…

 V is reading Running with Scissors right now and after seeing Burroughs at the bookstore, Meg was interested in reading it too. V didn’t want her to start reading his copy and get sucked in so he took it to work with him so she couldn’t read it. I love that he did that. It makes me laugh because I would’ve done the same thing. Don’t bogart my read. There is a trailer for the movie Running with Scissors that looks extremely promising. Also the fact that Augusten Burroughs is blogging is beyond fantastic. It’s kind of like when I started free yoga (which, incidentally, isn’t free anymore…) I kept looking over my shoulder wondering “Does anyone ELSE know about this deliciousness???”

OH! And…he’s developing a series for Showtime. It just doesn’t get any better. This packet of goodness coupled with the fact that a Chipotle is moving into the new Whole Foods shopping center up the street from us, has made my week. Hm. Does that make me a total lame ass or someone who relishes the little things and finds joy in the mundanity of everyday life? I prefer the latter.

A big hug to the girl in her fabulous new Citizens. You know who you are.

oh, and I hope you’re having a good trip Louise. Careful driving. I worry so. XOXO