I am suffering from a mega dose of reality plus not feeling well. Everyone keeps saying “Are you SO happy to be home?” Um…no. Doesn’t that sound awful. I’m sure it does. It’s hard getting back to life and while I’m glad to be back in my bed, etc I was getting quite used to not having any responsibility. Sigh…

Finn and Hadley had a competition about who could be the most whiny and cranky today. I have to say it was neck and neck for most of the day but Hadley won after her 45 minute cryfest about why we couldn’t get a cat. Literally. Kicking and screaming and whining and pleading for 45 minutes about why we couldn’t take home this homeless cat. Finn, in all of his adorable cuteness with the buzz cut and all, likes to yell “MINE!” and  “DON’T”! In the last few days he has also taken to calling out for Grammie and Bompie when things don’t seem to be going his way or when it strikes his fancy. The whole first day when anything happened he would yell for them. He also likes to cover his head with his blanket and then bump into walls laughing hysterically.

Hadley J turns 4 on Saturday. Big girl. We’re having the Reptile Man come to the house for her party. I want to hold the boa constrictor! Hadley will be SO excited. Apparently this guy brings 15 animals and it’s very interactive. They can touch them and hold them…alligator, turtle, snakes, etc. We’re just having a few kids over so it’ll be pretty mellow.

I think I’m paying for the Australia trip now health wise or something. That’s Peter’s theory anyway. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow to get blood work done and to chat with the doc. I had some weird abdominal pain on my right side for 2 days so I went to Urgent Care an hour after we got home on Saturday. The doc there said he thinks I had a “strain in my abdominal wall”…whatever that means. Since then the abdominal pain has subsided but I am feeling totally and completely drained not to mention my skin in some areas, mostly my back, literally hurts to the touch. Blech blech blech. I went to yoga tonight to try to relieve it. It helped a little. I find myself mad again that I have this stupid fucking disease.

Peter and I have latched onto Oprah’s Debt Diet and while we are in NO WAY like the people she has profiled on her show ($170,000 in debt? Holy shit.) it will do us some good to scale back spending and be aggressive about paying off debt. The first day I was like “Yes! This will be a great thing we can do together!” I revelled in filling in a spreadsheet of all important data and punching in new formulas to see where we could cut and save.

Um…yeah. Cut to me a day later and I’m over it. I just want to run down the street ripping up money for sport. Being cheap is hard.

Many congrats to our friends Elizabeth and Mick, who had a little baby girl on Friday. Welcome to the world, Ava-Jaemes Valentina! I keep thinking back to when we first had Hadley and smiling. They say there is nothing like your first.  It’s such a wondrous, amazing time. Your little family has now grown to three and life will never be the same.