Finn had his 1 year checkup today and all was well. He had to get three shots, which hurt me more than they hurt him. Although from the sounds of his screaming I’m not sure anyone would believe that. Hadley hid under the nurse’s desk during the shots and then later in the car said “Mom, I thought he was going to die.”  Ugh.

The nurse was running through the usual questions they ask at these things like “Is he saying Mama and Daddy? Is he eating well?” But then she asked a question and I swear time stopped for a second and I was frozen.

“So, he is going to the bafroom ok?” she asked completely serious.

I stared.

“He is using the bafroom fine?” she repeated.

I must have stammered out a yes although I don’t remember it because I was too busy thinking “YOU WENT TO MEDICAL SCHOOL AND NO ONE FUCKING TOLD YOU THE WORD IS BATHROOM?”

I just couldn’t get past it.

I watched two shows yesterday I don’t normally watch. House is one of them and Peter is gleeful that after one episode, I’m hooked. It’s a great show. The episode I watched was about a woman who had lung cancer and was 28 weeks pregnant. It’s much more complicated but the resolution was they had to do a C-section and she died. I bawled. The whole thing was just too much.

Another thing that was just too much, in a good way though, was an episode of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy that I randomly watched. The hilarious part was that they had to make over a Nudist. The episode is titled “A Nude Scary Garcia”. HA. I was dying. They were all just so uncomfortable and kept making faces and saying hilarious stuff. They guy lives with his conservative mother and they redo a portion of her doily covered house so he can hang out nude and not bother her. It was insanity. I used to watch the show all the time. I forgot how funny those boys can be. I love them.

My heart is heavy this evening worrying about MMP. Have you ever wished you could take pain away from someone? I never have until now. I would take away her pain and frustration and if I were healthy enough I WOULD give a kidney to Steven Cojocaru. I just would.