This relaxing bit is hard work. Since arriving here I have literally done nothing. I am a busy bee by nature so taking me out of my element and plopping me somewhere else has literally left me to do nothing but relax. At home I am constantly doing something or thinking about something that needs to be done or writing down a list of things that need to be done. Here all I can do is ...rest. Just what the doctor ordered but I have to tell you I have been fighting it a little. I keep asking my mom if there is anything I can do, to which she replies "absolutely not". It feels odd, like wearing someone else's clothes, but I will continue to lay about in the peace and quiet. I think I may take a walk today to enjoy the glorious Colorado weather and then take in a 3:15 showing of the movie Closer. Now that I think about it, EVERY mother should be required by law to do this once a year.

My long legged friend Emily VanDerhule's birthday was yesterday. She and her fiance, Eric, graciously invited me along to dinner at a fab little restaurant called Table 6. Jesus...it was good. The perfect mix of ambiance, service and food. It might be my new favorite.

I am feeling better, which is very nice. Swirling around in a hole of pain and fatique was misery, not only to me, but to my darling husband and children too. Now that I have gotten 12 hours of sleep for 5 days in a row I feel human again and a little bit like my old self. I have moments where I wallow in self pity about this whole Lupus thing wondering "why me?" and wondering about the future but being alone this past week has given me a lot of time to think and prioritize things. The bottom line is: I will be fine. This is just the beginning/learning process of Lupus for me and my family. Once we get medications under control and calm this flare-up, my life will return to normal. It will be a new normal but it WILL return to normal. Things have become clearer too and I like that.